I try not to view work as a huge waisted part of my day, but the truth is, today I feel very much like it is.
I’m beginning to resent the things I HAVE to do everyday, because they prevent me from finding some sort of peace of mind.
True, I could block those feelings out, and try to find a little bit of fulfillment in the workplace, and I do, but I can only do that for so long.
I just wanted to take the trash out today. Thats all. Nope, cant happen, people need me at work.
I just want to stop at my old house, the house I’ve worked for, and tried to fix up, and tried to live in, I just wanted to stop and check on things, but so, some one had parked their car in my drive way. Probably the same person who destroyed my mailbox, and ripped up the mail, and thew it all over the yard.
And I can’t do a thing about it because I am here.
I want to take my cats outside and make sure they will be okay, but no, I don’t have all day to do things like that.
It’d be nice to clean the trash out of the back seat of my car, or change the flat tire, or replace the headlight that went out a month ago. Nope.
I feel like their are strong forces in the universe working against me all the time. I don’t know what to do about.