Don’t Worry

I haven’t forgot about you, I just haven’t had a chance to write, and it doesn’t help that my Internet at home has been out for a couple days, but Adam is calling the cable company now to see what we can do. 

Today has been a lazy rainy day, but I have not been lazy, I cleaned all day. I’d really like to just find a comfy corner someplace and curl up with a book, and a plate of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies, but that’s not going to happen, I’m at work now, so I can’t stay here long, I’m expecting a client soon. 

I have finished may Anne of Green Gables book finally, now I need the second one! I probably won’t be buying it anytime soon tho, money is coming in steady, but going out way to fast. Adam is really stressed about it right now. Well, enough about me, what have you been up to? How would you have liked to spend the day? Read any good books? 

Aaron

funky me

   I’ve had about 3 days in a row where I feel a little crazy. It’s just being busy at the salon, which is not all together a bad thing, since I’ve been praying for a boost in my income, I did expect it to get a little crazy. I feel like I piss Adam off when I’m like this because I become inpatient, and snap easy, and take offense at every word spoken to me. Last night I was sick also, it started as a migraine, but sometimes if I have a migraine that goes on to long I get sick to my stomach too. 

   Anyways, I’m trying to get past this funk. I think it’s on it’s way out. I was thinking about doing an online search for a church to go to tomorrow. Deep down I just want to be at home all day tomorrow, but I know I need to do this. 

   Well, I going to go I guess. 

Night

Aaron

The Church Search

As you know, I have been on the look out for an okay enough church to attend on a regular basis, and haven’t found just the one yet, although I’ve liked parts over every place I’ve gone so far. Well, this morning Lil Fella was having a fit for two hours (no an exaggeration by any means, it was really two hours long!) so we couldn’t go to church anywhere. It worked out though, I watched the Life way Pentecostal church on their website. Thats the one that had amazing praise and worship, but fell short on the message, but had a good crowd of people, so I was kinda heart broken over the crappy sermon… well, I wouldn’t say they’ve completely redeemed themselves in my mind, but it was better than my first impression. I feel like, it kinda compares to my old church in a way, I never totally agreed with everything from Ahop, but got enough out of it to still leave me inspired.

I did a lot of praying this morning, and it did feel like I was there most of the time. I didn’t plan on listening to the preacher, but ended up doing it anyways. He did touch on one subject that has always been ‘taboo’ to me, and I don’t fully understand, yet.

The hollie spirit, filled with the hollie spirit? (I feel like I’m spelling it wrong) I don’t know what the wording was he used, but ppl have been praying for it in their church. I think that’s what they call it when you pray, and start talking in tongues.

I was raised to believe that ALL PENTECOSTALS ARE POSSESSED BY DEMONS!!! But I don’t, and have never believed that. Anyways, it has gotten me thinking about the whole thing. It’s so easy to miss things in the Bible, but someone did once show me where it talks about  a special prayer language’ in the Bible.

So, I’ve been wondering today, if I should be praying for such a thing. After all, if it has more power to it, to pray like that, I would be a blessing to have. I have always felt moved to pray for others, it always seems to work out good, it’s usually my little secret, but I can smile and watch as God works in others people. I keep thinking about it. Should I pray to be filled with that spirit, that prayer tongue?

Lil Fella thinks it’s crazy, but he’s okay if they do it at church. I guess we’re alike in that way. Funny how I bounce things off a 9 year old that acts like he’s 4 years old half the time. Hummm…..

Well I better get to bed.

Let me know what you think!

Aaron

Poems, Pics, and a Song

Here are some poems that my friend Melanie wrote, she’s letting me share them with ya’ guys.

I think I’ll put on some music too…

http://youtu.be/o22eIJDtKho

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there was no meaning to my life
only empty pain and endless strife
and then,in the darkness there was a spark
 
that spark was you
a brilliant flash
bright and bold
turning my pain to ash
 
no that spark has become a fire
a rageing flame that will never tire
 
 
sugar cane
on your lips I taste sugar cane
its enough to drive me sane
I find comfort in your arms
I want you,
to hold me forever
i’ll be with you
until a minute after
 the world is no more
 
wanting you more
every day
craving your touch
needing you love
your are my favorite drug
 
and I am never sober
 
 
Hope you are enjoying your Sunday Morning
 
Aaron
 

Anne of Green Gables

Yeah, so I’ve been reading Anne of Green Gables by L.M. Montgomery. I picked it up a while back at a local thrift shop, it was 25 cents, no joke, for a vintage copy, in pretty good shape. Ya know I have a thing for old books, I’m especially good at finding them cheap, or free, and being poor an all, it has kinda turned into my thing. I collect them up, a little at a time, only picking ones that I will actually read, otherwise it’s just clutter around the house.

Well, anyways, I had started to read it, then I got into writing my own story for a while, and put it down, but I had done a little research on the author, thinking ‘this book is probably similar to her story, I bet she just made it a bit more dramatic for the sake of telling a good story’ Sadly, I was very much wrong, it was more the other way around.

She used he life as a jumping off point, she had actually written most of it when she was a kid, growing up, most of it was her diary, the ppl and place where all based off of real ppl and real places, but in her old age, she had gotten into a funky depression, b/c her life was actually pretty crappy. Her parents died when she was a baby, and she was passed around different family members. Not much different than Anne, but she never found her home like Anne does. So, like I said, she was old and sad, and she decided to re write her life in a way she’d like to remember it, she wanted to make it a happier story… she ended up overdosing. 

After I had done that research I couldn’t write for a while. I also couldn’t pick that book up again with out thinking of the tragic outcome of the author.

 

I think the Anne in the movies was beautiful, and although she was so full of life, their was an underlying sadness. I didn’t want to read the book anymore b/c it put a dark cloud of doom around me. But, as the reality set in, it has made me appreciate the story so much more.

I also relate it to my life. I guess I’d be more like Marilla, and Lil’ Fella would be like Anne.

 

I’m more rooted in tradition, I takes things a bit to serious, and I’m always scrubbing down the kitchen like her, and never give up on trying to tame the wildness in Lil Fella. Anne, I’m sure, would have been diagnosed with ADHD, and some sort of something else, I’m sure, just like Lil Fella, they where both good in school, but always in trouble, and always behind. They both make constant mistakes and get into trouble non-stop. The insane imagination can be found in them both. I wonder if maybe it’s just always been a common thing in orphans…

I’m almost done with the book. I’m going to have to find the rest of her books now. I’ll let ya know when I finish it.

Later

Aaron

Church blog again

Remember the Pentecostal church I tried out a couple weeks ago? Well, a girl from there drove by the house today, she brought some baked goodies, and told me they’d really like to see us again. 

Why am I so torn about this whole church thing? Why do they have to be so kind, yet that first sermon told me everything I needed to know to decided not to go back. 

I think I will go back, but just for the music and prayer, then I’ll skip out early. Is that terribly rude? I did it at AHOP, my old church, for about a year straight, but it’s so big nobody noticed. 

After all, they are still my brothers and sisters, in spirt, in Christ. It’s hard to hate your brothers and sisters. At one point in my life I’d have considered them my enemy, but I know thats the wrong way to do things, besides, if you love your enemies, and pray for them also, then you will never really have an enemy. Except for Thee Enemy of course, but he’s already bee defeated, and he knows it. 

Well, if you sick of me talking and blogging about this, just tell me, really, if I need to shut up. 

Later

Aaron

Hi There

http://youtu.be/-UNT3poCd6U

I hope this video works. It’s just something for us to listen to while we catch up :)

It’s been a while since I just sat down and wrote a rambling blog about everything, and nothing all at once.

We tried another church on Sunday, not completely sold on it, but I’d probably go back to give it another try. It’s just that the sermon was about marriage, and that is one topic I am sick of.

Not that they were talking about same sex marriage, or saying anything bad, I’m just burnt out on the topic all together. I mean, as far as same sex goes, I’ve found the one person I’m happy to spend the rest of my life with, and we have started a family together, I don’t know if the rest of society will ever get comfortable with that or not. I think, if you’ve got that big of a problem with me, then you might need to do some looking inward, see whats so messed up deep down inside of you that makes you feel threatened my me.

I feel like a little bit of balance is being restored in my life. I actually have the house… sorta… halfway clean, and I’m not frustrated, or worn out, although my feet do hurt a bit. I guess I’d better thank God for that, since it’s been in my prayers so much.

And as far as the writing contest, not  a single entry so far. Whats up with that? And my Etsy store, I’m pretty sure I’ll be closing that soon. I’m just sick of trying for nothing. Not a single sold item. I’d like to start selling on my website. (if you’re reading this on wordpress, well, my actual side is sogaspe.com) I feel like my whole web presents need a once over, everything getting old, and boring to me, and still not what I’m wanting.

Well, I gotta go.

Later

Aaron

Hobbies

So, anyone thinking about entering my writing contest? 

I’ve been working on sewing a pair of pants for my renaissance festival costume. Yeah, I know I’m a nerd, leave me alone alone about it ;)

It’s just… all the fabric scraps, they’ve gotten me in a creative mood. 

Anyways, I have a lot of pics I want to post asap. Theres so much I’d like to do! 

I did manage to try a new recipe, Julia Childs recipe for bagels. They turned out perfect! I’m already planning on making more, and I just finished them today. Ya know, when Lil Fella first moved in I thought my fun recipe tryin’ times were over. I figured I’d just be making dinners out of canned goods, and box dinner things, because I’d no longer have the time to try new stuff, but I’ve been trying new stuff all the time. 

It turns out sometimes, those hobbies you used to dedicate your focus to, the ones you think you wont have time for later on, when you have kids, they actually come in handy. And they still serve as a little escape from reality. I’ve made Lil Fella so many things, hats, gloves, sweaters, now I want to make him more normal clothes, and me, I’ve made myself stuff, and Adam has stolen several black scarfs, and hats from me. And all the cooking I used to do, that’s what I fall back on now. When all the food is running low, I can still whip up something, some bread, some jelly, cookies, cake… something. 

well i g2g

Aaron

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Writing Contest with free Give-away!

Writing Contest with free Give-away!

Hi! So, I have a friend who gave me a ton of fabric scraps, I made this bag out of some this morning, for anther friend who doesn’t sew.

Well, I’m feeling nice, and creative, so if you want me to make you something, here’s what you have to do for me.

Enter my writing contest
step 1. Write a few paragraghs about your religion, philosofies, to general beleivs about life, or the after life, or super natural.
You can not write about politcs or include politcs in your writing. (I don’t care where you stand on same sex marriage) You also cannot put down another group of people, or some one elses beleifs. These two things will get you automatically rejected.
Step two. Email me what you’ve wrote. My email addy is http://www.jamieaaron03@yahoo.com You will also need to email me an adress to send you your prize. (unless I know you in real life also, then I’ll just hand it to you lol )
If you write, and express your beleifs well, and I want to use what you have wrote in a future blog post, I will make you something as a prize.

p.s. if you’ve already wrote something like this in a blog or elswhere, that is fine too!

Good Luck, and I can’t wait to here from some people.

Aaron