I went to Dayton last night. A couple I’m friends with invited me to go see a band, my birthday and my friends are close together, so it was like out birthday celebrations.
I never go out to bars. This was one of those rare times I did, but it wasn’t anyplace nasty or crazy. It actually made me feel like I should be drinking something fancy like a martini, but I don’t know how to order drinks, and I usually don’t care for them anyways. I don’t mind drinking beer b/c it’s simple I guess, you can order any kind, and they’re all pretty much just beer. Nothin’ to special in my opinion.
(I actually like to imagine I’m someplace back in time, like an old pub in Ireland, or a castle in Germany when I have a beer.)
Anyways, even though most people think Dayton is a dangerous place, I feel comfortable there. The streets aren’t normally to busy, only around bus stops, but those people never bother me.
This was inside, sorry the picture is so blurry. It was a three man blues band. They were pretty good.
We talked about all kinds of stuff, I caught them up on my kids, they told me how they were considering having a baby, but they’re nervous about being parents. And there are health concerns. It’s one of those “now or never” moments for them. They’d like a boy.
I think they’d be fine, but it is scary to think about the first time. After a year or so, it settles in, and the thought of more kids isn’t nearly as scary, at least that’s how it was for me.
I think if we get a baby, I’d prefer a girl, we could be done. I think four would be enough. We’d at least be done for a long while lol. But if a baby doesn’t come along, I think we’re done for a while anyways. At least until these boys all start to get used to each other.
They left a little earlier than I did. It’d been so long since I just went somewhere by myself that I just wanted to sit there and take it all in. I watched and listened. I would’ve made a trip to the bar after they left, but I just didn’t feel comfortable with the bartender. She was about 70 I’d say, and she looked very angry.
I considered walking around the block, just to take in the city. There is something very freeing about walking around the city at night for me. Most people would be scared, but to me, it’s relaxing. I get that feeling that I’m a tiny speck and a huge universe. Like I’m part of something bigger, some small part of something big.