Saturday we had a party for Lil Fellas 11th birthday. It was the biggest party we have had for him so far, no reason really, I think we were just in a mood. It was at this ridiculous place called Scene 75, they have games, go carts, laser tag. Basically just a big place to play, and be entertained. It was a lot of fun. I think everyone had a good time.
Sadly his sister’s family decided to flake out and not come. They sent a text during the party. It’s to bad, I’m not sure how much that effected Lil Fella, but it bothers me. He had bought her a really nice present with his own money. We haven’t seen her in over a year. They are twins, so she’d be celebrating her, or their birthday alone, again.
It was planned, agreed on that Lil Fells, his sister, and their little brother would stay in contact with each other. To me, that’s a two way street, no a one way, but I feel like it’s turned into a one way. It’s not fair to these kids who think about each other all the time. They’re not always talking about it because they are afraid to betray their “new” families loyalty. The weight of the impact would probably be similar to a child of a divorced couple who does everything wrong while raising their children.
The system, although it has brought my little family together, is so broken.
On a lighter note, our new possible kid, I’m going to use his initials, P.C. was at the party. Adam picked him up, and I dropped him off. P.C. and Lil Fella got to meet for the first time, and they got along great. P.C. helped Lil Fella do things, that was cute. Lil Fella wrote him a note and passed it to him in the car, it said “P.C. I will miss you”. It was on the back of a crumpled up receipt.
P.C. suggested we stop on the way back and get ice cream, since we had enough time. Lil Fella loves getting ice cream, and we had more than enough time, so we did. It felt horrible to take P.C. back to the group home. I feel like he didn’t want to go back, or he didn’t want us to leave. Something like that. He asked me when he’d see me next, and I said ASAP. I had a strange feeling that wasn’t soon enough. I tried calling him yesterday, several times, but apparently they don’t have someone to answer the phone on Sundays. So I will have to try again today.
Going a day like that is a good reminder to me. It reminded me that I must do everything I can for our little family.