I woke up half way through the night and couldn’t go back to sleep. I was kinda craving a music marathon, but I knew it’d drive Adam nuts as he was sleeping.
I remembered there was a Janis Joplin documentary on Netflix that I’ve been considering.
I watched an old VH1 Behind the Music on her when I was in 7th or 8th grade, and only remembered her being bullied in school. (Probably because I could relate)
Really it was a downer, but good, she was filled with pain.
There is so much to be said but I’m just going to highlight the parts that really ‘spoke’ to me.
I LOVE that she actually had a really big heart. She grew up in a “good” town/family/school, but of course she was to different to fit it.
The “good” places nearly killed me growing up.
She got involved in the civil rights movement, the klan harassed her.
Her dream was to be beautiful and loved. Not rich and famous. Sadly she never felt beautiful or loved.
She fell in love with the lead singer of a band, they both got messed up on drugs and agreed to get sober before getting married, they did get sober, unfortunately he moved on and had a baby with another girl.
He later got her to join his band, and that’s how she became known. They played just because, didn’t charge for shows, then some movie company tried to film their concert and they wouldn’t have it.
It was because they were performing for free, they didn’t want someone making money off it. In the end they got a record contract, they actually weren’t that great. The band was sloppy and Janis was all over the place with her vocals, but they got better.
Her and her ex didn’t use drugs in the early days, people respected that. He navigated her through the industry knowing she’d be taken advantage of with out him.
Eventually she had to venture out on her own, she did okay, but really needed someone. Her loneliness and heartbreak is what drove her back to drugs.
Through it all she was always reaching out to people, she always wrote letters. I have a feeling her parent never truly accepted her as she was, she wrote them anyways.
We all know how it ends, but really I think it was the heartbreak that killed her, it just used drugs to do it.
Janis, I pray that you are at peace now.