It’s been days since I’ve wrote anything.
One night I tried to vent my feelings into my journal but ended up ripping out more pages than I wrote. I guess there goes my feeling huh. Well, at least I had them unlike some cold unfeeling people. I don’t want to become one of them.
Anyways, I figured I’d start here with something. I just need a spark of motivation, inspiration, creativity, something. Nothing has held my interest in days.
I browsed around a site called hitrecord last night, but didn’t know where to start, and my mouse wouldn’t work anyways, so I gave up. No projects of mine felt worth it for some reason. I tried to play some music but it just sounded like noise. I couldn’t brain storm anything because I felt more brain dead.
I’ve been playing The Sims just because I like to build and design their tiny imaginary homes. It’s an odd waist of time. Right now two of my Sims are in the park having a dinner party with a teddy bear, a princess, a human sized rabbit, and a wizard.
That old record I mentioned a while back called The Folk Sounds of Freedom, well, in a completely different thrift store, in a different town, I found two more of their records, I bought them thinking it had to be some kind of strange fate, that they were obviously put there in front of me for some good reason. I’ve tried to listen to them but every time I get interrupted, so maybe I was wrong about it all being some cosmic power sending me things I needed to hear. Who knows…
I just need to find a way to get excited about something again. Anything.